yep i think i am seriously losing my mind. lately i seem to be a magnet for incredibly weird ignorant people. It seems like it doesn't matter where i am at, there is always at least one in the stinking crowd that has something stupid to say. The worst part is they don't want to view anyone elses opinion on the matter, they just say what they want and then leave in a tuff.
this week started off really horrible. Right now i can't wait till it is over.
my parents have a friend visiting from ny and now melissa is in laura's room for the week and although i have known him since i was a child and i know he means well, but i am really getting tired of peole trying to fix me and my kids.
i am tired of explaining about my childrens condition and why there is no father in the home, of all things i guess i expected my parents to put a stop to all the questions but no, they just sit there looking the other way, and then wonder why i keep to myself.
i go to my room to do homework and they want to know if i am angry at them, because i have always taken part of family time! News flash, i have responsibilities and it doesnt always fall in the catagory of sitting in front of the television watching reruns of the waltons. UGHHHHH
does anyone else have the same trouble?
Okay, i know it is going to be hard putting two families in one house, but i try to mind my own business where their lives are concerned. Do they do the same? oh no, lets fix shannon up with someone because she must be lonely, lets rearrange her room while she's gone to help her or how about lets undermind her infront of her children and insist that our way is the only way to raise children...... Can anyone say breaking point!
i don't know but maybe i am going crazy, i just know that if i hear one more person say that sam and laura need to have a chance to be NORMAL i'm seriously going to hit someone and i won't be sorry for it either. Could it all be just an october type of thing? Like maybe really nice people lose therir senses temporarily during the month of october or something. I wish someone could shed some light on the subject because i am really feeling hostile right now .
oh well, maybe i'll lock myself in my room and pretend i'm in another world for a while, hehe.
i feel like buggs bunny in the cartoons, must have taken a wrong turn at alberquerqe
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
big hellos from kids
Anyhow, i bombed both exams the past two weeks. I don't know whats' wrong with me, but is it possible to study so much that your mind turnsto mush? that is what i feel like right now and i am getting so frustrated with myself. I am too slow on reading fingerspelling and everyone seems to be picking it right up. I can't seem to turn my brain off and just read the sounds of the letters together. i don't know what it will take for me to get past this point but i don't feel like i am getting anywhere.
I am visiting the asl sites but do fine with them so why can't i get it straight with ruby or others.
oh i don't know, maybe i permanent memory loss when it comes to reading what we've all learned. Go figure.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sam and Laura has a new pass time
well today is monday and i just finished taking the quiz for the online class. Right now things are pretty quiet here because david and melissa are at a young life meeting. I am updating the blog and sam and laura are watching ice age 1. I know it is an older movie but i can't help but laugh at it. Some of the things they say are too funny.
Anyhow, i didn't make it to the cochlear workshop. I have been tirelessly dealing with sinus and ear problems. I am doing better but have to see an ent on my birthday of all days. From what i have heard about the workshop i think it is good that i didn't go because i may have ended up hitting someone.
Saturday i was in bed all day and trying to relax when sam and laura wanted to watch the videos from signing time. They love them, well i put one in and sam started yelling no!!!!!!! He was very persistent and i thought laura was going to jump on him to keep him quiet when i finally figured out what he wanted. He has watched me review Rubys videos from vocabulary and wanted to watch them. So i dragged myself out of my warm comfy bed to sit at the desk and let him watch them. He and laura repeated every sign she did. IT was't always perfect but it was fun to see them try them.
Then when he got tired of them i found some youtube fingerspelling videos on line and there was one with a baby in it and he loved it although he kept saying she was wrong. Since we came to the deaf games he has litterally blossomed in using sign. I can't get him to usually move from one sign to another very easily but since last wed. he has been running around the house asking for sign . I think it's great!! Right now, laura wants to know if she is better than him and if we have competition in class to see who is better than the other person. I just tell her no, and that we try to help each other, and that she should try to help him as well since she is older than he is.
She said she'll think about it but i depends on how many of his toys he shares! LOL
I have been fingerspelling everything at home so that i can get familiar with it more and trying to get ( parents and kids) to fingerspell back so i will get better at reading it as well. Needless to say david just turns around and walks away. I guess 15 yr old boys are above the helping mom thing. Melissa however, says mom will you just stop and sign because it takes you way to long to figure out what i am asking you. Usually she is very patient with me, but i guess her limit of being asked to repeat herself is 25. LOL
any how, better get back to studying.
shannon
P.S. new sites i found asl.ms , fingerspelling practices ( takes you to youtube) they are pretty cool and i will definately keep visiting them.
Anyhow, i didn't make it to the cochlear workshop. I have been tirelessly dealing with sinus and ear problems. I am doing better but have to see an ent on my birthday of all days. From what i have heard about the workshop i think it is good that i didn't go because i may have ended up hitting someone.
Saturday i was in bed all day and trying to relax when sam and laura wanted to watch the videos from signing time. They love them, well i put one in and sam started yelling no!!!!!!! He was very persistent and i thought laura was going to jump on him to keep him quiet when i finally figured out what he wanted. He has watched me review Rubys videos from vocabulary and wanted to watch them. So i dragged myself out of my warm comfy bed to sit at the desk and let him watch them. He and laura repeated every sign she did. IT was't always perfect but it was fun to see them try them.
Then when he got tired of them i found some youtube fingerspelling videos on line and there was one with a baby in it and he loved it although he kept saying she was wrong. Since we came to the deaf games he has litterally blossomed in using sign. I can't get him to usually move from one sign to another very easily but since last wed. he has been running around the house asking for sign . I think it's great!! Right now, laura wants to know if she is better than him and if we have competition in class to see who is better than the other person. I just tell her no, and that we try to help each other, and that she should try to help him as well since she is older than he is.
She said she'll think about it but i depends on how many of his toys he shares! LOL
I have been fingerspelling everything at home so that i can get familiar with it more and trying to get ( parents and kids) to fingerspell back so i will get better at reading it as well. Needless to say david just turns around and walks away. I guess 15 yr old boys are above the helping mom thing. Melissa however, says mom will you just stop and sign because it takes you way to long to figure out what i am asking you. Usually she is very patient with me, but i guess her limit of being asked to repeat herself is 25. LOL
any how, better get back to studying.
shannon
P.S. new sites i found asl.ms , fingerspelling practices ( takes you to youtube) they are pretty cool and i will definately keep visiting them.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!THE SCHOOL LISTENED
Okay today was an alright day. Earlier this week i attended an sat meeting for laura. I sat with her teachers and special ed director. I listened to them tell me how she struggles and isn't paying attention, and how she needs help. I gave them all my paperwork and showed them what the doctors have said. would you believe that the special ed director tried to blame laura's condition on the thought that it is because everyone did everything for her. NOT SO.. i am vy adamate about laura doing her own work. She would learn absolutely nothing if everyone did the work for her.
Then this morning before class, i attended sam's iep meeting. Finally a year after starting, they are giving an aid who is certified in sign to help in his room. They still insist that Sam has to speak, but i just smiled and said great, but don't expect perfection. He can't repeat consistently what he isn't hearing. How many times does a person have to explain before the people who are supposed to be specialists in their field actually get the point?
when we went to game day, i was thrilled to see sam trying to play with maddie, even though he couldn't get his mind off his trucks. She actually is the first girl besides laura , that he has even considered playing with. He had a good time, because when we got home he kept signing play girl to his poppy. I kept showing him her name sign, but he still called her girl. I am sorry for the noise he made during the test, though. I hope he didn't upset anyone. Towards the end i think i saw him mimicking ruby's hands. He was sitting on the desk top looking at her and i could see him moving his hand, but i was really trying to pay attention to what ruby was signing.
I hope all did well and thanks again for being so good to sam.
I also think i have to brush up on my chess playing skills, because next time De brings her set, i plan on winning a match. LOL
Then this morning before class, i attended sam's iep meeting. Finally a year after starting, they are giving an aid who is certified in sign to help in his room. They still insist that Sam has to speak, but i just smiled and said great, but don't expect perfection. He can't repeat consistently what he isn't hearing. How many times does a person have to explain before the people who are supposed to be specialists in their field actually get the point?
when we went to game day, i was thrilled to see sam trying to play with maddie, even though he couldn't get his mind off his trucks. She actually is the first girl besides laura , that he has even considered playing with. He had a good time, because when we got home he kept signing play girl to his poppy. I kept showing him her name sign, but he still called her girl. I am sorry for the noise he made during the test, though. I hope he didn't upset anyone. Towards the end i think i saw him mimicking ruby's hands. He was sitting on the desk top looking at her and i could see him moving his hand, but i was really trying to pay attention to what ruby was signing.
I hope all did well and thanks again for being so good to sam.
I also think i have to brush up on my chess playing skills, because next time De brings her set, i plan on winning a match. LOL
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Just because
Well, here it is Sunday and right now, my kids are not talking to me, because we are not going to deaf bowl tonite. I wish they could understand deadlines and finances, but they don't. It's alright, because they will love me again at movie time. Once a week i try to do a movie night when everyone (mostly me and kids) huddle on my bed and watch movie. I got Nims Island, which i have seen before and thought the kids would like it.
The movies we watched this past week in class have really impacked my thoughts. I am sure that i will never do a cochlear implant on my son. I am almost possitive that i will be sending them to Romney, i am just still weighing the odds against the good stuff. today, they went horse back riding with their sister and brother and we all collected leaves and made paintings. Next i am going to go out and play freeze tag with them and hope that they don't kill each other.
when we play games in class and everyone gets so competitive, its cute, but noone ever gets hurt. However, with sam and laura, any game almost always ends up with someone crying over cut and bruised knees. They try to run faster than each other and tag harder then anyone else.
Anyhow, i just want to thank everyone for understanding that sam had to come with me and that they treated him great. thank you all very much for that. It meant alot to have him sit in
a room of people and not be stared at or had comments made about him. Thank you again,
hope all have had a great weekend and see you all tomorrow.
shannon
The movies we watched this past week in class have really impacked my thoughts. I am sure that i will never do a cochlear implant on my son. I am almost possitive that i will be sending them to Romney, i am just still weighing the odds against the good stuff. today, they went horse back riding with their sister and brother and we all collected leaves and made paintings. Next i am going to go out and play freeze tag with them and hope that they don't kill each other.
when we play games in class and everyone gets so competitive, its cute, but noone ever gets hurt. However, with sam and laura, any game almost always ends up with someone crying over cut and bruised knees. They try to run faster than each other and tag harder then anyone else.
Anyhow, i just want to thank everyone for understanding that sam had to come with me and that they treated him great. thank you all very much for that. It meant alot to have him sit in
a room of people and not be stared at or had comments made about him. Thank you again,
hope all have had a great weekend and see you all tomorrow.
shannon
Monday, October 6, 2008
Some very deep thoughts about life
Well today we watched that movie and were asked to write a paper on our thoughts. Lets just say that i had an hour and 15 min of driving time to think about the movie and my view point on it. For me the movie hit very close to home. It has been suggested that Sam have the surgery. They suggested it over a year and half ago. My answer then was no, and still is no. It is not my
choice to make because i am not the one who has to wear the device or am forced to go to the
speech therapy sessions. It sounds wonderful because as a mother i know what sam is missing when the wind blows or a bird sings. Now sams condition is not quite the same as being profoundly deaf. He hears , he just doesn't make out the sounds and understand what they mean. Ever listen to a radio with static , well, that is what he hears. He tries to say words but they don't sound right and his voice is different from other kids his age.
After the long ride home and helping laura with her homework. I sat down to write the paper. And here i am still here trying to write the same paper, after 2 runs of finding nemo playing on the tv. LOL It didn't dawn on me until just now, that as i am sitting here pondering my thoughts on helping people who really don't need help, that even though it is a cartoon, marlin wants to help his son nemo learn how to be safe and live a good life. By protecting nemo , he actually pushed nemo away because nemo wanted to choose for himself and wanted to try to do things on his own. In the end as everyone probably knows, nemo is the hero of the story and proved to himself and his dad that he indeed was capable of doing amazing things.
I think that i would have to come to the conclusion that although my son can't hear things the
way that i do, He deserves the chance to learn and grow and excell as he is. I feel it would be unfair to him if i tried to fix him and make him what i want him to be. He is who he is and i am proud of him. He and Laura are amazing and teach me so much everyday. I will not allow a person who has never walked in our shoes push me into fixing a problem they think exsists. I am sorry for being so blunt, but the ignorant closed minded people of this world will just have to be uncomfortable with the fact that my children are different than them. If they have a problem with it, then don't look at them. If that should be someone's choice i pitty them because they are missing out on a blessing. Sam and Laura are not stupid , dumb, or incapable of learning. They are individuals who are diferent,but the smartest people i know. They are wonderful and as long as they have family who love and support them, they will excell and grow and acheive things i could never dream of. They are my future and i think i will rest easier knowing that they are proud of who and how they are. I accept them and someday so will the rest of the world. Sorry for getting so emotional, but this is a tough subject for me. Thanks for being patient.
choice to make because i am not the one who has to wear the device or am forced to go to the
speech therapy sessions. It sounds wonderful because as a mother i know what sam is missing when the wind blows or a bird sings. Now sams condition is not quite the same as being profoundly deaf. He hears , he just doesn't make out the sounds and understand what they mean. Ever listen to a radio with static , well, that is what he hears. He tries to say words but they don't sound right and his voice is different from other kids his age.
After the long ride home and helping laura with her homework. I sat down to write the paper. And here i am still here trying to write the same paper, after 2 runs of finding nemo playing on the tv. LOL It didn't dawn on me until just now, that as i am sitting here pondering my thoughts on helping people who really don't need help, that even though it is a cartoon, marlin wants to help his son nemo learn how to be safe and live a good life. By protecting nemo , he actually pushed nemo away because nemo wanted to choose for himself and wanted to try to do things on his own. In the end as everyone probably knows, nemo is the hero of the story and proved to himself and his dad that he indeed was capable of doing amazing things.
I think that i would have to come to the conclusion that although my son can't hear things the
way that i do, He deserves the chance to learn and grow and excell as he is. I feel it would be unfair to him if i tried to fix him and make him what i want him to be. He is who he is and i am proud of him. He and Laura are amazing and teach me so much everyday. I will not allow a person who has never walked in our shoes push me into fixing a problem they think exsists. I am sorry for being so blunt, but the ignorant closed minded people of this world will just have to be uncomfortable with the fact that my children are different than them. If they have a problem with it, then don't look at them. If that should be someone's choice i pitty them because they are missing out on a blessing. Sam and Laura are not stupid , dumb, or incapable of learning. They are individuals who are diferent,but the smartest people i know. They are wonderful and as long as they have family who love and support them, they will excell and grow and acheive things i could never dream of. They are my future and i think i will rest easier knowing that they are proud of who and how they are. I accept them and someday so will the rest of the world. Sorry for getting so emotional, but this is a tough subject for me. Thanks for being patient.
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