Okay today was one of those days. I felt completely lost. First of all i missed all but 5 min. of the NMS class because i had to attend court for melissa. Thankfully it is all over and she is now in my full custody again. Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!! thought that day would never come!
well when i got to class i was clueless about what everyone was learning and felt so stupid. I get very nervous when Ruby calls on me to sign . Sometimes i sit in the corner and secretly wish that she didn't see me. I am so afraid of making a mistake. I really envy some the people in our class for their abiltiy to pick up the sign and NMS so quickly. I wish it were that easy for me. I always feel like i could do way better than what i am and get discouraged easily. I have recently had thoughts that i'll never make it to interpreter, but i am trying not to set myself up for failure.
I really apperciate everyone's patience with me during my family crisis' and for not judging me. I can't even tell you what a relief it is to know that although you all are tired of hearing about my kids and their troubles, that you don't just yell at me to SHUT UP.
It's hard for me to find other things to talk about because for most of my life i have been a mother and a wife. That was my life. So i don't have other things to compare to it. I am sorry if the conversations at times are boring.
I think that Ruby is getting frustrated with me because my mind is going blank lately. She doesn't say anything, but it is just a feeling i have. She has been wonderfuly patient with me and all my questions and I think that she is a great teacher and although it has been rough at times i am glad that there is not an interpreter. Well i better get back to studying. Good luck everyone.
shannon
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Movie at Romney
Okay, the night started out great. First i brought my daughter to school with me and was really excited to have her there. We had a small lunch and waited for Sarah, and Pam to show up.
I had to put blankets down because sam is a really messy little boy and left m&ms in the seat where his car seat was. Sarah had to be the interpreter for Pam while i drove. I haven't mastered signing, let alone signing while your driving. Besides , i thought they would really appreciate getting there alive and in one piece.
When we got there i felt really overwhelmed and embarrased because i'm not really good at signing or reading fingerspelling yet. We watched the movie and it was different but i liked it. Thankfully i understood some of the signs and the nms the actors used were great. I figured it out and even got the point of the story. Afterward Pam gave us a tour of the Dorms and introduced us to some of her friends. It was really great. I had some aprehesion about sending sam and laura there, but seeing it last night put some of the fears aside.
Then Sarah, treated us to ice cream and milk shakes. YUM!!!!
Oh yeah it took us over 3 hours to get home because i got lost. We saw a sign for Morgantown that said 56 miles, then one that said 42 miles. Somewhere after that we took a wrong turn and ended up stopping for directions. Guess what we had completely back tracked and ended up another 109 miles away. So Sarah and Pam kept me awake so we could get back home . Alive that is. I did reaize that the closer you get to home, the faster you seem to drive. LOL
well, i don't know if they will ever want to ride with me again, but i would certainly love to do more activities like that and also I enjoyed myself a great deal. I learned alot of neat things about Sarah and Pam and i think that if the opportunity should rise again that everyone should really try to go. It was very awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had to put blankets down because sam is a really messy little boy and left m&ms in the seat where his car seat was. Sarah had to be the interpreter for Pam while i drove. I haven't mastered signing, let alone signing while your driving. Besides , i thought they would really appreciate getting there alive and in one piece.
When we got there i felt really overwhelmed and embarrased because i'm not really good at signing or reading fingerspelling yet. We watched the movie and it was different but i liked it. Thankfully i understood some of the signs and the nms the actors used were great. I figured it out and even got the point of the story. Afterward Pam gave us a tour of the Dorms and introduced us to some of her friends. It was really great. I had some aprehesion about sending sam and laura there, but seeing it last night put some of the fears aside.
Then Sarah, treated us to ice cream and milk shakes. YUM!!!!
Oh yeah it took us over 3 hours to get home because i got lost. We saw a sign for Morgantown that said 56 miles, then one that said 42 miles. Somewhere after that we took a wrong turn and ended up stopping for directions. Guess what we had completely back tracked and ended up another 109 miles away. So Sarah and Pam kept me awake so we could get back home . Alive that is. I did reaize that the closer you get to home, the faster you seem to drive. LOL
well, i don't know if they will ever want to ride with me again, but i would certainly love to do more activities like that and also I enjoyed myself a great deal. I learned alot of neat things about Sarah and Pam and i think that if the opportunity should rise again that everyone should really try to go. It was very awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
rough but somewhat funny weekend
Hey everyone.
Would you believe me ,if i said that school is more relaxing than at home? No? I probably wouldn't either. After my crying outburst at school Friday, ( thanks everyone for being so supportive, i really appreciate it.) i got to go home and collapse on the bed and pretend i didn't exsist for a while.
I went to ohio with my step father to pick up my mom's new cook stove. Boy, that thing is huge!! It takes up twice the amount of room the last cook stove did. I asked my mom who she thought she was cooking for, the college campus? Okay, yeah we have 11 peole in our home, but we still don't need a stove that big.
I did manage to not run over the old man jogging in his underwear with a shower cap on. NO! I'm not kidding, there are some wierd people out there.
I did manage to take Melissa, David, Laura and Samuel bowling on Sunday. They had fun although sam was very bad. He pushed a litlle boy who tried to get on the ride with him which he got disciplined for. He is at the age that whatever another person has belongs to him and his stuff belongs to him. Then he didn't let go of the ball and slid down the lane with it. I quickly ran and got him and told him to be careful and not do that again at which he thought , Oh something else to bug mommy with, i wonder how many times i can slide down the lane.
Then to make matters even better, my 15 year old is checking out every girl who walked passed us. THen Laura who is only 6 gets a higher score than meliss and i combined. Now that is sad!
Monday, they had to go to the doctors and found out that they have double ear infection and pnuemonia. Yeah, more money and time spent in waiting rooms.
Well , i guess that is enough for now. You guys can only handle so much complainging right?
By the way i realized that i really stink at reading fingerspelling!!!!!!!!
Would you believe me ,if i said that school is more relaxing than at home? No? I probably wouldn't either. After my crying outburst at school Friday, ( thanks everyone for being so supportive, i really appreciate it.) i got to go home and collapse on the bed and pretend i didn't exsist for a while.
I went to ohio with my step father to pick up my mom's new cook stove. Boy, that thing is huge!! It takes up twice the amount of room the last cook stove did. I asked my mom who she thought she was cooking for, the college campus? Okay, yeah we have 11 peole in our home, but we still don't need a stove that big.
I did manage to not run over the old man jogging in his underwear with a shower cap on. NO! I'm not kidding, there are some wierd people out there.
I did manage to take Melissa, David, Laura and Samuel bowling on Sunday. They had fun although sam was very bad. He pushed a litlle boy who tried to get on the ride with him which he got disciplined for. He is at the age that whatever another person has belongs to him and his stuff belongs to him. Then he didn't let go of the ball and slid down the lane with it. I quickly ran and got him and told him to be careful and not do that again at which he thought , Oh something else to bug mommy with, i wonder how many times i can slide down the lane.
Then to make matters even better, my 15 year old is checking out every girl who walked passed us. THen Laura who is only 6 gets a higher score than meliss and i combined. Now that is sad!
Monday, they had to go to the doctors and found out that they have double ear infection and pnuemonia. Yeah, more money and time spent in waiting rooms.
Well , i guess that is enough for now. You guys can only handle so much complainging right?
By the way i realized that i really stink at reading fingerspelling!!!!!!!!
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Bowling night
Hi again,
i know i haven't been to very many activities for the asl class. However i did go to game day. I was pretty nervous about it and felt like i had stuck out like a sore thumb. I have been hoping to go to the bowling nite as well, but the weekends are a little tricky for me. It happens to be a school nite for the kids and then there is the gas and cost of playing if i choose to do that. I am going to attend (deffinately) in October. I plan on bringing my two youngest children because i think they will get a lot out of it.
As far as our next game day, i think i will try to find a game the kids haven't lost pieces to and bring it. I enjoyed playing with Ruby, April and Kendra, There was another girl that played cards with us but i forgot to ask her name. Yeah, i know, stupid right? Anyhow, i don't mind playing the cards and rummy, but i think April either has beginners luck or she's counting numbers. HA Ha. She seemed to win every hand but one. I couldn't figure it out. Also it was neat to learn a new way to play it as well. We used the jokers as wild cards ,but i had never known you could do that before. I can't wait until next game day. It was really cool.
Anyhow hope everyone has a great weekend.
i know i haven't been to very many activities for the asl class. However i did go to game day. I was pretty nervous about it and felt like i had stuck out like a sore thumb. I have been hoping to go to the bowling nite as well, but the weekends are a little tricky for me. It happens to be a school nite for the kids and then there is the gas and cost of playing if i choose to do that. I am going to attend (deffinately) in October. I plan on bringing my two youngest children because i think they will get a lot out of it.
As far as our next game day, i think i will try to find a game the kids haven't lost pieces to and bring it. I enjoyed playing with Ruby, April and Kendra, There was another girl that played cards with us but i forgot to ask her name. Yeah, i know, stupid right? Anyhow, i don't mind playing the cards and rummy, but i think April either has beginners luck or she's counting numbers. HA Ha. She seemed to win every hand but one. I couldn't figure it out. Also it was neat to learn a new way to play it as well. We used the jokers as wild cards ,but i had never known you could do that before. I can't wait until next game day. It was really cool.
Anyhow hope everyone has a great weekend.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
one test down and two more to go! Whew!
Whew! I am sure glad that test is over. I pretty much smacked myself all the way home, because i knew the ones i messed up on. They were really stupid mistakes. Anyhow, i just hope that it wasn't a failing grade.
The next two tests have me worried. I have a hard time in nms because i am not sure when to use what expression with what sentence. I am sure i am not the only one in that boat. I get bored sometimes reading technical stuff and find my mind wandering away.
This evening, i came home with all intentions of studying when i walked in the door, but visitors showed up and put that plan on hold, so here i am at 11:30 at night trying to learn this stuff.
Well, i wish everyone lots of luck, and hope that you all do great on Friday as well.
until , next time.
shannon
The next two tests have me worried. I have a hard time in nms because i am not sure when to use what expression with what sentence. I am sure i am not the only one in that boat. I get bored sometimes reading technical stuff and find my mind wandering away.
This evening, i came home with all intentions of studying when i walked in the door, but visitors showed up and put that plan on hold, so here i am at 11:30 at night trying to learn this stuff.
Well, i wish everyone lots of luck, and hope that you all do great on Friday as well.
until , next time.
shannon
Thursday, September 11, 2008
ruogh week but still going
wow! this week has felt like the longest week i 've ever known. Everyone at my house has been sick with a cold of some type or another. The kids are good, but typical. I waas disappointed about the test i took and failed. I studied but my mind went blank.
I am excited about sign class, but when i watch everyone in the class, sometimes i wonder if i am in the wrong place. They all seem to be so good. I want to be an interpreter, but mostly want to communicate with my son and daughter without either of us getting frustrated. there are some times when i think that i made a mistake by going to school. Mostly when they are crying when i leave. I some how feel like i am abandoning them..I am ( in addition to my daughter Melissa) the only one who can sign a little.
I started signing before laura was born about6 years ago. I had 3 friends in church who were deaf. Well God never brings people or things into your life without a reason. So naturally i thought that laura would have problems with her hearing. I just took it in stride and when she passed the newborn hearing screening , i was exstatic. Then 3 years down the road Samuel came along, 2 months premature. He was a fighter in the fact that he didn't just give up. He struggled to breathe for 3 1/2 hours till the nicu unit could get to him. 3 days after he was born, he took a turn for the worst and i was told he wouldn't make it. All i can say is that God amazes me everyday. He had pnuemonia and they treated him, in two days he was well enough to have the hearing screening done. Everything was perfect. All was there and functioning.
After he came home , our family fell apart. We had a really bad incident which forced the kids and i to move to wv. sam was 6 months old. Well things went on as usall but with all the chaos of moving and the family unit being split in half, i didn't really pay much attention to the milestones of the kids. ex. crawling, cooing, sittiing up.
It was about 1 year after we moved that one day i sat with sam and realized that when he played, he was completely silent. then i remembered how calm he was as an infant. I just thought he was a good baby. After about 7 hearing tests and 2 abr's and autisim being ruled out.
we discovered that he has auditory nueropathy. i thought ok i can handle this. I mean God doesn't give you more than you can handle, right? Well ski-hi has been coming out and working with him and me, when the sign teacher noticed laura watching very intently. I thought she just wanted to learn, after all she could talk fairly well. Guess what? Yep, laura has been reading lips all this time and has the same condition sam does to a different degree. So to make a long story short, that is why i am here. Thanks for reading and next time it will be shorter, i promise.
I am excited about sign class, but when i watch everyone in the class, sometimes i wonder if i am in the wrong place. They all seem to be so good. I want to be an interpreter, but mostly want to communicate with my son and daughter without either of us getting frustrated. there are some times when i think that i made a mistake by going to school. Mostly when they are crying when i leave. I some how feel like i am abandoning them..I am ( in addition to my daughter Melissa) the only one who can sign a little.
I started signing before laura was born about6 years ago. I had 3 friends in church who were deaf. Well God never brings people or things into your life without a reason. So naturally i thought that laura would have problems with her hearing. I just took it in stride and when she passed the newborn hearing screening , i was exstatic. Then 3 years down the road Samuel came along, 2 months premature. He was a fighter in the fact that he didn't just give up. He struggled to breathe for 3 1/2 hours till the nicu unit could get to him. 3 days after he was born, he took a turn for the worst and i was told he wouldn't make it. All i can say is that God amazes me everyday. He had pnuemonia and they treated him, in two days he was well enough to have the hearing screening done. Everything was perfect. All was there and functioning.
After he came home , our family fell apart. We had a really bad incident which forced the kids and i to move to wv. sam was 6 months old. Well things went on as usall but with all the chaos of moving and the family unit being split in half, i didn't really pay much attention to the milestones of the kids. ex. crawling, cooing, sittiing up.
It was about 1 year after we moved that one day i sat with sam and realized that when he played, he was completely silent. then i remembered how calm he was as an infant. I just thought he was a good baby. After about 7 hearing tests and 2 abr's and autisim being ruled out.
we discovered that he has auditory nueropathy. i thought ok i can handle this. I mean God doesn't give you more than you can handle, right? Well ski-hi has been coming out and working with him and me, when the sign teacher noticed laura watching very intently. I thought she just wanted to learn, after all she could talk fairly well. Guess what? Yep, laura has been reading lips all this time and has the same condition sam does to a different degree. So to make a long story short, that is why i am here. Thanks for reading and next time it will be shorter, i promise.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
family togetherness
wow, these pictures show just a glimpse of my kids. Melissa has the peircing blue eyes. She's 17, then there is David (15) and Leanna (18). Can't you just feel the love? they are typical teenagers, but they have their good days too. All in all they are great kids!
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