Okay today was one of those days. I felt completely lost. First of all i missed all but 5 min. of the NMS class because i had to attend court for melissa. Thankfully it is all over and she is now in my full custody again. Yea!!!!!!!!!!!!! thought that day would never come!
well when i got to class i was clueless about what everyone was learning and felt so stupid. I get very nervous when Ruby calls on me to sign . Sometimes i sit in the corner and secretly wish that she didn't see me. I am so afraid of making a mistake. I really envy some the people in our class for their abiltiy to pick up the sign and NMS so quickly. I wish it were that easy for me. I always feel like i could do way better than what i am and get discouraged easily. I have recently had thoughts that i'll never make it to interpreter, but i am trying not to set myself up for failure.
I really apperciate everyone's patience with me during my family crisis' and for not judging me. I can't even tell you what a relief it is to know that although you all are tired of hearing about my kids and their troubles, that you don't just yell at me to SHUT UP.
It's hard for me to find other things to talk about because for most of my life i have been a mother and a wife. That was my life. So i don't have other things to compare to it. I am sorry if the conversations at times are boring.
I think that Ruby is getting frustrated with me because my mind is going blank lately. She doesn't say anything, but it is just a feeling i have. She has been wonderfuly patient with me and all my questions and I think that she is a great teacher and although it has been rough at times i am glad that there is not an interpreter. Well i better get back to studying. Good luck everyone.
shannon
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Shannon i'm always here if you need someone to talk to! we all need someone we can just let things go with. Its better to talk about it then just let it build up on you!
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